Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Tis the Season

As I am rushing around trying to get all accomplished before Christmas, I am reminded, once again, that the Lord could care less as to whether I've sent out this years' Christmas cards or whether I make this holiday party or that holiday party, or whether my house is perfectly decorated with every bow, garland or Christmas light in place.

All the other stuff can wait. . . .

At the moment, all is tranquil. . . my twiin girls are near me, doing their homework. Dinner is about done.

I am doing what is most important. . . .
Not stressing over what I need to do.

I guess the play we are doing at church this year has gotten through to me.

The main character (played by me) is a mother, who in her day was an theatre major. She is trying to put on the Church Christmas pageant, only to be "sabotaged" by all who are participating.

No one knows their lines, some kids are sick, so there are only 2 wisemen instead of three. The boys are fighting and everyone is miserable. The characters in the play believe the mom, who is head of the "Christmas Committee" has gone wacky because she has gone off the deep with this play, wanting everything perfect.

The mom sees herself as indispensable to the church. She believes that Christmas at the church wouldn't even happen if "she" didn't make it happen herself. She builds the set, she bakes the cookies, she creates the costumes, she writes the script and even arranges the music. On top of that, she has to get all done for her family's Christmas. All the time, not taking the time to enjoy the fact that Jesus was born to save her life. Not taking the time to celebrate his birth.

It isn't until her husband, the pastor, tells the kids in the play, a few stories about people forgetting Jesus' birthday, which relates to our present age, that she understand SHE is the ONE who has forgotten his birthday.

Everything turns out fine. . . the Christmas pageant goes on and the mom participates with joy in the end.

Dinner is ready and being served.

I must go.

Good night!!!


Monday, December 10, 2007

Fifteen Days Before Christmas!

So much to do. . . .so much to do. . . . .

Memorize lines

Buy Christmas Cards

Write them out

Print out the Christmas picture

Send them all

Buy Christmas gifts for family out of state

To buy online or here and just send them on

What to buy? What to buy? I don't know!

Oh memorize those lines, don't forget to memorize those lines.

Memorize the songs

Where do I stand? Which way do I walk again? Where am I headed?

Upstage or downstage?

Stage left or stage right?

You want more emotion?

Not enough passion?

Oh my gosh, what to make for dinner!!

What about laundry?

Running around while the kids are in school. . . .

Physical therapy, market, find an outfit for Saturday,

Can't I just meet my friend for coffee ?

Errands to run after school. . . .

Allergy shots on Tuesday


Piano lessons on Wednesday


Drum lesson on Thursday


One on her way to youth group on Wednesday,

While the other two are off to Awana.

Remember to bring stuff to decorate the leader like a tree.

In the car, back and forth, back and forth.

Don't forget he has youth group on Thursday.

Oh my gosh!!!

The neighborhood Christmas party is Friday.

Have to go, since it's across the street!!

Oh no!

Don't forget the dessert!!!

Piano recital on Saturday!!!

But first to take him to driver's training that morning.

Where to fit in a "updoo" and make up.

Company Christmas party that night.

Make sure to look like a million bucks!!!

Sunday would love to rest, but no can do

Get up for church,

Then on to drop off one at rehearsal

Drop him off at driver's training

Then back to pick up the one from rehearsal

Get home and put dinner together

Go back to pick him up from driver's training.

Oh my gosh!!

Christmas Shopping!!!

I've got to memorize those lines!!!

Where is the joy?

Next time.

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Don’t Look Back

No matter how much we try, we can’t repeat history, we can’t pick up where we left off, we can’t go back and live life out differently.

We can look back on our lives and wish things had been different, but what if the life we are living today was the life we had to live to make us into who God is perfecting us to be?

My life. . . has been good overall. Sure, when the times were hard, they were HARD. . . for me. But I have been blessed beyond measure.

My life as a wife has at times been bittersweet. May I add that in ignorance and disobedience, I contributed to a lot of that bittersweetness. Noted author, Gary Thomas of “Sacred Marriage,” asks the question “What if marriage is NOT to make you happy, but to make you holy?” To put it this way, “what if the very person you are married to is exactly the person God would use to “clarify” the junk in your heart and mind, floating to the top, as butter is clarified when it is boiling. The fat floats to the top, and is scraped off.

I am thankful to the Lord for His faithfulness in my life. He continues to speak to me and show me that He is about “a work” in my life and my dear husband is part of that work.

This week, I found out that my neighbors are divorcing, another couple I know are separated, but hopeful of reconciling in their separated time. There are a handful of couples, I know, going through the same thing . . . thinking that the grass is going to be greener on the other side of the fence. These are church going people.

What is going on????

People, we are at the end of the age and the trials and tests planned for us are meant to see what we are made of. To the believers of the faith, I am speaking to.

We are more focused on being happy, than being holy. Do we even know what that means?

We all have hard times. We blame our upbringing, our past relationships, our parents,etc. We all have imperfect marriages. So what!!! Have we thought that perhaps we induced some of this hardship by making poor choices and taking our eyes of the “Author and Perfector of our faith?”

I know I am guilty, big time!!!

But I know my Redeemer lives!!! Thank You, Jesus!!!!

Romans 8:29 says, “For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.” In other words, God hand picked you and I to live out the life we are living today. Does that mean He wants us in a bad marriage or an unfulfilled one? NO!!! Praise Him that He has given us free will to choose. We live out the repercussions of those choices, good or bad, for which we cannot blame God.

My feelings for those I’ve known who left, tore, ripped their families apart to fulfill their inflated idea that their new life with their new “soul mate” would be everything they had ever fantasized. But sadly, I have come to find out that their life is worse than before.

What about if there is abuse or addiction? These are extenuating circumstances, which should be addressed by one who is qualified. But as one, who grew up in an abusive home with addictions, I can say, for myself, that God has used that time in my life to strengthen me and show me that I if I keep my eyes on Him, He will get through those rough seasons.

A snippet of my past caught me recently. Well it’s more like I had pursued the past. For a split moment, I wondered . . . “what if,” all the while I was in my time in God’s Word. I believe before the thought became too nurtured, the Lord spoke to me in the verse of the day. . .

“But Jesus said to him, “no one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.” Luke 9:62

Okay, there it is!!! Immediately, I was sobered up! What happened to Lot’s wife when she looked back at Sodom? She became a pillar of salt. Why? I believe she was unwilling in her heart to say goodbye to her life back in Sodom, her idea of happiness.

I am reminded of Galatians 5:16 “Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusts against the Spirit and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you DO NOT DO the THINGS that you wish.”

The bottom line. . .

I can’t go back.

And truly, I don't want to go back.

I want to go forward.

And pursue righteousness.

To Glorify the Lord in my walk and not put on a “show” when out, like the Pharisees did, but be genuine at home, whether by myself or with my family, where it counts.

I want to be fit for the kingdom of God.